The research never ends. Each time I think I can write on something, trace an idea, I'm faced with yet another line that leads to further understanding.
As we travel into a heated and disastrous reality, with more and more haste, it seems I am compelled by a force I cannot explain, to examine, to audit, to study fanaticism and socio political movements of both the seen and unseen. A picture is forming, ever so slowly coming together.
Helpful excerpts from Dr. Caroline Orr-Bueno a scholar of the study of human behavior and society’s constructs of disinformation in the western world, Dr Zachary Goldsmith and now the famed Dr. Bart Erhman, they help keep the rails in place with the mighty realm of world religions and spirituality.
This force drives me in ways I wasn't expecting. Waking me at the ungodly hour of 3:00AM some days.
I remember saying in a tired prayer to my higher power:
"Look, what's the point of all this? I'm just tired, and depressed about all this, and sometimes? even scared."
The answer I got back was, "My dear, ask the many sacred friends you have, tis not an easy thing to be a messenger. In fact, it can feel like its own kind of violence. Herein lies the Grace. To walk humbly, to be present and to be open. For thy Grace is sufficient for this thorn."